Posted by Daisym on May 1, 2006, at 2:45:31
I think I'm a horrible person.
My husband is going to go into therapy. He needs helping coping with our separation and he really wants to try marriage counseling. I'm not ready so I told him he had to go by himself first. He asked me to get a list of therapists for him and I did. He made an appointment with one for next week.
I found myself getting more and more upset at he told me about this. His appointment was for the same time as mine, in the same city. I wanted to question him more closely but I also don't want to know too much. I was just terrified that he had chosen someone in my therapist's office. Turns out the person he initially had an appointment with isn't on our insurance so he canceled that one. Now he has another, but in a different city. (whew) But still...I'm a wreck about this. I'm absolutely terrified that I'll be in trouble for what I've done. Some part of me is sure he is going in to tell on me. But it isn't about me -- it is about him. So, what is going on?! Do I not want him to work on himself and feel better? Do I not want him to have support and caring and kindness, especially since I have it with my therapist?
Like I said, I think I'm a horrible person.
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