Posted by TexasChic on August 28, 2008, at 22:26:13
In reply to Re: Thanks everybody. » TexasChic, posted by Kath on August 28, 2008, at 14:46:16
Thanks you two, I'll imagine you all by my side when I finally have to go back in. My own little hallucinatory support group.
I think I'm getting a little more adjusted to the thought of going back to work. But although I may feel a little less anxious, I feel more depressed. I guess I'm just starting to accept the inevitable. Of course my emotions go back and forth constantly, I may be a mess again tomorrow.
I'll still be pretty freaked out the first day (probably Tuesday) and will probably throw up before I go in, but I'm at least starting to think of the good points about it. Like the people I'll be happy to see, and how it will feel good to actually be working again, and just interacting with other people after a month of almost total solitude. But I also know how fragile I will be and don't know how I'll handle it if things get hairy. Also, we'll be starting our busiest time of the year, so... here comes the maniac hours.
Well, Tuesday I have the doctor's appointment first thing in the morning, so I'll find out then whether or not my time off can be extended. If not, I'll just go in to work that day. I keep expecting my boss to call me between now and then to say, so are you coming back or what? Just the thought of that makes my chest hurt. I guess I better go take a Xanax, talking about how less anxious I am seems to have made me anxious. Go figure.
-t
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