Posted by workinprogress on May 22, 2009, at 2:14:22
In reply to Therapist totally came through for me, posted by FindingMyDesire on May 21, 2009, at 23:19:32
FMD-
I had a rough day today (work is crazy) and this totally put a smile on my face. I'm so glad to hear you trusted her some more and that it turned out so well for you. I just hope you'll keep sharing and talking to her. I know it's hard and it's in your own time, but this process can be healing in itself... hang in there if you can. And we're here..
> Part of me feels like, "Here we go again." I tank, I suffer, I finally share my pain, I get care (amazing care where she gets me and even adjusts some things to make it better/easier for me), then I start down this next path. I start feeling the love for her. Next I'll want to shower her with my feelings and declarations of love. I'll survive that and feel like I can take on the world. I'll start being me again and taking up space - doing the things I love and asking to be seen and supported by my partner.
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> And THEN, it will all start over.
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> So, maybe I won't wait this time until I feel the disconnection part coming. I'll just tell her that's my fear next time I see her (instead of/or in addition to the love feelings). Right now I feel like I could trust her with anything.
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> And yes, I shared some of the dark and ugly parts tonight. I told her what self-destructive behaviors I exhibited this week. It didn't seem to change how she cares about me or scare her off though. She just was right there with me.
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> Thanks again to everyone who helped me through this week.
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> FMD
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