Posted by starloree on April 25, 2006, at 17:20:12
In reply to Re: Ridiculous » starloree, posted by happyflower on April 25, 2006, at 16:50:18
Well, he told me that he wasn't gay, wasn't married and didn't have a girlfriend. see, he is only about a year and half older than me, from what i gathered, is a grad student at my university. and also, he did tell me that he found me attractive. because i had told him in previous sessions that that question also weighed heavily on my mind, if he found me attractive, cause the guys i like usually end up not finding me attractive,or they are unnattainable (as is abvious in this situation!) and i told him, during the session i got my answers, that usually when i had a crush in high school, at least i found out the answers to my questions, i could ask around, to see if anyone knew if my crush had a gfriend or not, and you usually always found out in high school (which was quite a few years ago for me, seeing as how i am 23 now) if your crush thought you were cute or thought you were disgusting (and i used that word disgusting when telling my T) and he said, after he answered my other questions "and i don't find you disgusting, i DO find you attractive..." and then i said, well that's good to hear! and then he smiled and shook his head and said "well, no..." and i told him i knew nothing could happen,so i wasn't getting my hopes up. but i have found a certain peace since he answered my questions. although i do think of him still, and still want to hang out with him outside the office, hold his hand (they look so beautiful, i tell you!), and kiss his cute lips which look exactly my size....i don't think of it as much as i used to, it used to TORMENT me.
hope that answers some questions. :)
starloree
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