Posted by Shy_Girl on March 9, 2005, at 17:00:04
In reply to Re: Why death is an option for me » Shy_Girl, posted by alexandra_k on March 9, 2005, at 16:19:23
> Yes indeed. If Berkely was right that 'to be is to be perceived' and if he was wrong about the existence of god then it follows that the universe ceases to exist once we have died (assuming that death is the end).
I must admit, I have no idea who Berkely is : P. I've never studied any philosophy...except for Bioethics, aka medical ethics. Philosophy is very intriguing to me because it is so very logical. I find it fascinating that math is in fact a type of philosophy.
> > I sit in wonder at the chaos and beauty of the universe.
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> Isn't that a reason just there?Actually, the above quote about the universe is from the Kid47
> I was in a similar place maybe 5 years back. I wanted to be a philosopher but was told I had so very many cognitive errors and was incapable of logical thought
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> So I thought I may as well kill myself because I was in so much pain and I thought I could never do what it was that I most wanted to do. And what I most wanted to do was my only reason for living.
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> And now...
> I am waiting on my PhD applications.Wow, that's wonderful. Glad to see you are trying to be who you want to be.
> All I am wanting to say is that maybe you are feeling so bad because you think that you won't be able to do what it is that you most want to do (lab work). But I reckon that you will figure that out and you will be able to do it. If you really want it and if you are prepared to try really hard and find some people to help you out.
Yes, I'm upset that academically, things haven't gone as I have expected. If I hadn't screwed things up with my mental breakdowns and skipping exams etc, I would be getting my B.Sc with honours this year...but instead I had to switch to a concentrated program and need another year to graduate. I was starting to think that maybe I'm not smart enough to graduate, but then after getting the A's I did last semester I began to see hope. Then the stupid 6hr labs I had this semester totally messed me up. Sympathetic NS system overdrive...headaches after every lab, horrible sweating, blushing, pounding heart, mind going blank. Ironically, the prof. said I was doing very well and couldn't understand why I had dropped the class.
By then, it was too late for my other classes. I hadn't been able to concentrate and midterms were fast approaching. I came up with the stupid idea to get midterms deferred by presenting symptoms induced by a non-lethal dose of ASA to the doctor.
I have some hope though, I can still suceed even if I'm a little late in starting right??
Thanks for reading : )
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