Posted by Eddie Sylvano on December 11, 2002, at 14:28:57
In reply to Re: On anger... » Eddie Sylvano, posted by Dinah on December 11, 2002, at 11:58:07
> Eddie, I'm a busybody I confess. But I *strongly* suggest that you try therapy again. But the possibilities of a richer life are there.--------------------
Probably. I've only been to a couple of them, never for more than 5 sessions. I wasn't real impressed with the apparent knowledge of one, and couldn't seem to quite communicate with the other. I guess I just have my doubts about the ability of someone to be skillful enough to assess my problems correctly, and address them effectively through therapy. I've only ever had a traditional doctor give me a correct diagnosis once, and disorders of the body seem like much more self-evident problems than disorders of the mind.
> Do you ever remember, as a child, of feeling? Of wanting to be with people? By the way, a divorce followed by a dehumanizing year long depression would probably reinforce your self protective impulses and build that war a bit stronger.
--------------------Yes, I recall fond memories from childhood. I enjoyed doing almost anything (bike riding, drawing, playing ball, etc), and I had plenty of laughs and thrills.
It's really only been in the last 5 years or so that I've been so unable to feel, experience anticipation, or have a coherent sense of myself and my life. I just feel like every day is disconnected, and I go through the motions of work and family and whatnot because I know it will be worse if I don't.
The divorce happened about a year after this all started, so it's hard to say what role it plays, but it can't be good. One possible example.. one of my current concerns is my disinterest in having any friends <> 2 months after the divorce, I discovered that she married my best friend (I'd wondered why he had gotten so distant). Probably a connection, but what does knowing it help? How could a therapist address this? I'm not saying therapy won't at all, it's just hard for me to believe in the utility of a method unless I have some understanding of it's mechanism.
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