Posted by Amelia_in_StPaul on May 15, 2009, at 19:09:14
In reply to Re: Giving up (*potentially triggering*) » Amelia_in_StPaul, posted by Poet on May 3, 2009, at 15:56:31
Oh my gosh Poet, thank you for the laugh!!! I too would probably keep rewriting the darn post-it, until a trash-can full of little balls later, I'd give up out of pure mental exhaustion.
Ahhhhh yesssss I have been trying to tell my @%*$# psychiatrist that the meds are not working, and I have tried for a few months, which should be enough for anyone. I finally got wise and found a new psychiatrist, one who will hopefully listen and help me find a new combo or new med. I go next Thursday--wish me luck!
Do you know, the Money Pit (the movie) was on TV and it actually made my spouse sort of livid? He couldn't stand to watch a minute of it. Me, I WATCHED IT. How sick do you have to be to do that to yourself? In the end, I kind of had to laugh.
I'm sorry that it's taken so long for me to respond. I got worse, and then I felt better, and now I can concentrate enough to finally write an overdue "thank you." All these notes have meant so much--and I needed humor as well as empathy, and I thank you for both.
No poetry anymore for you? Is that a good or bad thing? (I used to write poetry, but found its tendency to induce melancholia in me was not a good thing--no such problem with fiction.)
Thank you, Poet.
> Hi Amelia,
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> At many points in my life I have nvisioned writing "the note" on a post-it with a sharpie, only because I have to be perfect, I'd probably end up writing sorry for the bad wording and penmanship.
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> Your house situation sounds horrid, like a true money pit, bankruptcy is an option, but the damage to your credit rating can take years to clear, so I really don't know what to tell you.
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> I can tell you that you are intelligent, you write well and one day maybe will crank out that novel and get your PhD. Depression has clouded your any positive thoughts about what a good future you might have, I know those negative thoughts well. Maybe you need to switch from your current med to something that won't make you so tired? I'm on my third anti-depressant in less than five years, so I know how they can get to you.
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> Take care.
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> Poet (who can't write poetry worth %$#@ anynore)
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