Posted by happyflower on May 4, 2006, at 15:19:01
In reply to Re: Well I told him » happyflower, posted by daisym on May 4, 2006, at 14:32:46
Hi Daisy,
I know I did what was right, but it hurt really bad to do it. I still feel like I have lost something with him because of what I said. But I did stand up for myself, and I guess I gained a little bit of convidence in myself to do what is right for me.
Yeah, I am sure he is not thinking too nicely about me right now. I know he has a huge temper and he is a little angry right now maybe not directly at me, but at what I said, and how I interpreted his self disclosures. I still think he likes me though.
But today I was talking about that next week is my 20yr anniv. of getting drunk for the first time and I KNOW he probably wanted to say something about himself then, I could see he was struggling some today.
I still look back and can't believe I told him that he sucked, I am like where did that come from? But when he said don't talk to me, it kinda set me off. Why did he say that, doesn't he know that I know that already? Was he trying to hurt me even though he said it kinda of jokely. But yet even though it was jokely quality to it, it felt like he was saying, well up yours happyflower or you hurt me then I am going to hurt you too.
I think I did hurt him today, even though he won't let me know it. And since he didn't talk about himself today, I talked more than ever did, heck I was even looking at the clock, because time seemed to stand still. I guess I shouldn't over process all of this, but it is hard to accept all it. Thank for your support, Daisy, it means a lot. Any other advice for this poor soul?
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