Posted by fairywings on May 2, 2006, at 16:02:13
In reply to Re: T cancelled AGAIN!!! » fairywings, posted by gardenergirl on May 2, 2006, at 13:59:09
Thanks GG,
I thought it wasn't normal to cancel that much....my pdoc has never cancelled on me in over a year, but I know that's probably unusual.
I'm positive the overbooking was an accident. He has appts. back to back, but doesn't overbook. It's hard to get in unless you book at least 3 weeks to a month in advance. It's good you understand how painful it is, and want to make so much effort to avoid it, I'm sure your patients appreciate your thoughtfulness.Not that my T isn't thoughtful, he's always given me his ear, and never rushed me. That's another reason why I'm so conflicted....I don't have any right to be mad at him. I just am so hurt I don't even want to face him again....my answer to avoiding all my feelings is to quit. I know it sounds so juvenile, but I feel like I don't matter, and I'll just be another dusty file in the back room, he'll never know I've decided not to come back, and that hurts so much. I feel like I can't even write him a note to tell him how I feel because I have absolutely no confidence he'll be the one to open it, if anyone else's prying eyes will see it, or if he'll even read it. He told me no one else reads the notes he gets, but if that's true his asst. wouldn't have known what note I was referring to, and she did - that makes me horribly uncomfortable!
Thanks GG, I'm glad you told me it even hurts for T's to have their appts. cancelled. Gives me some hope it will pass, I'll survive, just like everyone does.
I feel like I'm just full of hurt and self pity right now, and it does feel awful.
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