Posted by eyes2ursoul on April 30, 2006, at 16:46:51
In reply to Re: lesbian sexual feelings fantasy 4 myT, posted by Veracity on April 30, 2006, at 16:23:55
Wow! Thanks so much veracity for being so frank and open and honest. I am really happy you have responded to me.
I totally agree with what you are saying, its just that i'm very afrais she'll terminate the therapy is she thinks i'm in love with her.
I've always had strong feelings all of my life for a woman in one shape or form.
It was my high school teacher from age 13 right up until around the age of 21 when i at last wrote her a letter declaring my feeling for her all those years.
She was very sweet about it and said it was normal for a school girl to have a crush on a lady teacher.
I still feel a love towards her today, an admiration and rerspect, although thanks be to God i'm not dreaming os sex with the teacher any more.
I have been dreaming about lots of sex with my therapist though. It started last July , straight out of the blue one night, and the most vivid dream possible. it stays with me to this day very strongly.
And since I've just had loads of dreams of sexual encouters with my therapist. I dont fight it now i just let them come. Actually since i have stopped focusing on the dreams they have pretty much stopped since end of Feb 2006.
But i dont know if or how i should say this - i have been fantasising about her in wakened moments. so i guess i brought from my subconcious dreams the desire into my consciouse world when i'm you know what, am i allowed to say masturbating (yikes!! & whoops!!)
sorry if thats a word i shouldnt use on here - please just let me know and i'll use whatever the acceptable alternative is on the boards.
Honest I did try to think of an alternative but i couldnt think of one, so i just went with the medical so to speak word for it.
Any thoughts on this whole subject anyone?
I do very much appreciate veracity's response so far. Thank you Veracity!!!
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