Posted by daisym on December 1, 2005, at 0:26:19
In reply to Re: Unconscious Seduction - long » daisym, posted by antigua on November 30, 2005, at 12:00:41
I'm holding you to your promise, Antigua. And you know my therapist, I can't get by with much. If I don't bring it up, he will. So we'll keep talking about this, over and over.
We talked about unconscious seduction in terms of the s/a today. It is hard not to believe that somehow I had the power to provoke my dad, to have enticed him somehow. It was a hard conversation to have and there is a lot of work to do here. I dissociated today in a way I haven't for nearly a year. It didn't help that before therapy I had a pdoc appointment that was triggering. He asked me if I was worried about my HIV status -- and I automatically said "no, my husband is the only sexual partner I've ever had." There was dead silence as we both realized this wasn't true. It was one of those really hard moments. Not that I'm at all worried about HIV -- I've been tested since I work in human services -- it just highlights how much I still don't accept what happened to me.
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