Posted by antigua on October 31, 2005, at 7:22:00
In reply to Re: Tale Tales **May be big trigger for some, csa**, posted by daisym on October 30, 2005, at 20:58:06
Sounds like you know too well. I hope I don't trigger you, or anyone here for that matter, too much because selfishly I would hate to lose the support, but I don't want to hurt anyone either.
That Christmas after my father left, I didn't see him for another 18 months, and had no contact. I started to make real friends and had a few boys who were interested in me. I was doing great, in my mind. I was as comfortable with myself as I guess I could be given the situation, but I didn't go run and hide in my room.
Then the ax fell again. My mother sent me to my father's for the summer before 8th grade, and never came back to get me. Dumped again. With my father's new wife and her gorgeous daughters who were exactly my age.
Talk about depression. I was replaced with him, because of the new wife and his eyes were now on the daughters, and I became a complete mess. Learned about bulimia and lived a miserable high school experience.
I guess that's been my life. Things get good, then security is yanked away, and I'm on my own.
So the 6th grade girl had one year of insanity and then it all started all over again.
I said I was working backwards, and I do think it is so I can maybe look/accept/understand the youngest parts when I am the strongest.
Take care, daisy, and I'm here with you too,
antigua
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