Posted by Dinah on April 30, 2003, at 17:40:22
In reply to Re: Well, now I'm upset » Dinah, posted by judy1 on April 30, 2003, at 15:44:10
I kind of hinted to my internist that I wasn't too happy about that diagnosis, and hinted again that it might be able to be controlled by changes in diet and losing weight.
While she was sympathetic, she didn't say anything about the label being removed. Just that I could control the diabetes. Sigh.
It's funny that of all the possible things to worry about, really my only major concern is putting my family's finances in jeopardy.
But I'm feeling calmer now. I spoke to my diabetic boss who is not on a group plan, and he reassured me that even if my husband is ever in a job without group coverage, that it *is* possible to get insurance, albeit at a higher rate. Which is the opposite of what my parents told me, but I think I'll trust the guy who's actually been in the situation and gotten the insurance. With my major fear assuaged, I feel much better.
They did two tests. One time I hadn't eaten for probably fifteen hours, and one time probably thirteen hours. I don't really eat much in the evenings anyway. So I guess the results are accurate. Just artificially high from stress and my traditional stress diet. She says if I lose twenty pounds I can probably go off the glucophage, but I have absolutely no idea if I can possibly lose twenty pounds. So many days, my long term survival is measured in hours not years, and getting through the day and meeting my obligations seems almost impossible. Thinking about my long term health isn't high on my list of priorities. I guess I need to change that outlook, but I'm not sure how to do it. Especially since I sometimes struggle with suicidal ideation. I'll have to keep in mind that the most likely result is problems with wounds and vision, not death.
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