Posted by tina on October 14, 2001, at 8:51:33
In reply to Re: bipolar w/out mania, posted by Wendy B. on October 13, 2001, at 22:11:21
HI Wendy
I' sorry you had such an up and down week. I hope your weekend is a little more relaxed.
I have to say that I really don't feel comfortable talking about my marital problems here. Suffice it to say that for the last 9 months, everything has been better. But, these past 8 years have been quite the roller coaster ride. I think I"ve finally figured out how to do it right though. what a relief.
Anyway, still couldn't call the doc this week. Friday came and went without any progress but yesterday..... WOW. Talk about hypomanic. I am on the agoraphobic side but yesterday I was positively loaded with bravado. Jeez. Went out to a restaurant for breakfast, went shopping, went to a movie etc. I just couldn't bring myself to come back home. I wanted to stay out there, stay active, go anywhere. I have these days. They are crazy. THe big deal about yesterday is that I had the nerve to go back into the store where I worked as a manager until june whenn I was rudely fired for "non-existant inappropriate conduct" I actually walked back into that place and held my head high. Apparently, the place has really fallen apart without me. That's gratifying. hehe
I should have fought the dismissal but for some reason, I just took it. Let it happen without so much as raising an eyebrow. Then again, it would have been very confrontational and I'm not good at those situations. I kind of just accept things like a "good dog" and crawl away.
Well, nevermind. I managed the day and had a good time for most of it. I wish every day could be like that.
Is it part of bipolar to get addicted to people or situations? Like, no matter how you get treated by a certain person or how destructive a situation is, you can't leave it or them? Your life seems over if you lose it??
Strange question, I know.
Anyhoos, like i said Wendy, I hope your weekend is much better and my best for the upcoming week.
Take care
tina
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> > I've been at that point myself. Actually picking up the phone and calling is the hardest part. Let us know how it is going for you.
> > I'm doing better, and feeling more stable, I think. September 11 kind of disturbed my equilibrium.
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> > Dinah
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> hi dinah & tina,
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> yes, sept. 11 knocked me out for awhile, too...
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> tina, i hope that even though you haven't called the doc, you are taking care of yourself. sorry i haven't written in a few days, i'm all over the place, with a week of hypomanic symptoms, one night was really weird, slightly scary. no big deal, no anger or irritability (no punching holes in walls), just going to bed late (2 or 3 am), then trying to get up early to go teach 6th graders... even so, i don't feel sleepy in the afternoon (this is a typical hypomanic thing, not feeling the need to sleep much), but i'm wired out and a little frisky. (and i don't mean cat food...)
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> your last post talking about your symptoms: the epiphany about spending money and the flirtatiousness... that is really interesting. have you done any more dog-walking and come up with anything else? i'm sorry to hear about the issues with your husband... don't know what to say... since there are about a million "Tinas" in canada, you probably can feel safe talking about it, if you wanted to...
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> i think the advice about contacting the nearest university with a teaching hospital is a good one. they should have someone who is an expert... you should really ask for one whose specialism is BP. i really hope you can call. although i know the feeling of not being able to, it's so difficult to do, especially after the merry-go-round with the other 5. (the inept morons...)
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> well, write if you can, i'd love to hear from you...
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> hugs,
> W.
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