Posted by wittgensteinz on April 17, 2011, at 16:26:23
In reply to Agony, posted by Annabelle Smith on April 16, 2011, at 12:29:24
I'm sorry you are in agony.
You've made your decision and I'm not so sure it was the wrong decision. While Boston - the program etc. sound like a wonderful adventure - going there, suffering and not being able to cope would be far worse than being here now having to wait a long weekend to see your T. There is still a lot of work to be done. Nothings lost. I would put in a deferral and see how it goes. If you end up going after a year - fine - if not, then just refuse your deferred place when the time comes. That's also ok. Then you leave your options open and you have time to decide what you want.
Regarding XXX - taking a handful of pills will most probably send you into a deep sleep - overdoses are not a good way to 'end it all' (trust me I have some experience) - while sleep is good, just take as many as prescribed to achieve that. If you feel suicidal, please be open about this to your T - don't be alone with it as it's a very dangerous place to be. In such a situation it's easy to be impulsive and honestly overdoses more commonly lead to liver damage than they do to death.
It's a fact that people often regret their decisions - I think you would have had regrets either way - Boston is not lost - it will be waiting there for when you feel up to it. Take your time and work on yourself first. There's nothing wrong with choosing to stay because of the relationship with your T.
Witti
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