Posted by Dinah on June 10, 2009, at 9:54:54
In reply to Re: Dizzy » Dinah, posted by Daisym on June 10, 2009, at 1:09:07
I rather suspect that hell is individually tailored to be, say, sharing a room with my mother for eternity. :)
I was talking to a friend last night, and realized I really don't want anything bad to happen to her. I just don't want to feel responsible for her. Daddy was responsible for her when he was alive, and he asked me to look after her when he died.
She really does need someone to look after her, even though she doesn't legally qualify as incompetent (unfortunately). I just hate that that person is me, since I really have no power to do it. So it's more the situation that I hate.
If I try to frame it that way in my thoughts and words, maybe I will avoid harming my own heart and soul with hateful thoughts. I do recognize that that is the only harm I can do. I can't harm her at all, only me. (Now if my less rational self would recognize that thoughts aren't deeds.)
Thanks, Daisy. I could use all the prayers I can get to find patience and lovingkindness. I don't think they come naturally to me.
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