Posted by jouezmoi on May 24, 2009, at 9:16:49
In reply to Ever Been In An 'Intensive Outpatient Program'??, posted by Jayy on May 22, 2009, at 12:47:39
Dear Javy,
I have read your post ... twice. What amazes me is that you seem to be very intelligent, very lucid and very coherent. That is a very good sign. I do not think that you are bi-polar 2, and I do not think that long term medication is going to do you any good. I also do not think that you have thyroid problems, or that group therapy will work for you. I also agree with your feeling that this would be another disappointment and waste of time.
I think you are carry a very deep psychological wound dating back to prior to 1994. That trauma in there has resulted in behaviour that, instead of relieving the problem, has exacerbated it - adding more trauma upon the original one. I say this because you are describing situations to which I can relate. It may not be the same circumstances but the pain and the effects are very similar.
Unless you can find someone competent at "exorcising" that pain using various techniques (not just talk, but EMDR or neurofeedback ... something that also addresses the physiological impact of this trauma), I do not expect you will get the relief you need. If you do go on medication, it should be to control the effect of addressing and releasing that trauma, which in itself can be painful as well.
Hospitalisation may be a good option, because then you can be aggressively treated, but only if that treatment involves individual daily therapy first, and medication only to manage the psychological effects of therapy. Can you find out what other programs may be out there? Are you limited to that hospital only?
poster:jouezmoi
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