Posted by B2chica on May 19, 2006, at 10:33:15
In reply to Re: Mom stuff » Daisym, posted by wishingstar on May 19, 2006, at 9:38:33
wishingstar. your words rang clear with me.
growing up we were NEVER allowed to show anger at a parent infact my mother never let me use the word Hate about anybody i would get lectured or spanked for it. i had to do whatever adults (or older siblings) said without question. i guess that's part of my rage issue. i'm mad because i feel that because of that upbringing that's one of the reasons i NEVER went to anyone about the abuse. i was just supposed to do it and not question.now i question. now i hate. now...i'm angry. but i still am confused as to how to safely let it all out. it ends up a little like waves, it starts to come full force and i pull back, let it out a little more and i censor myself saying NO that's not right...and pull back again.
i guess this is really why i need to get back into therapy. i need a safe outlet.but your right (at least for me) about the 'child roles' that were expected and ingrained in us.
thank you for sharing.
b2c.
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