Posted by Larry Hoover on May 4, 2006, at 10:42:21
In reply to Re: It's all Good News!, posted by Pfinstegg on May 2, 2006, at 15:44:43
> Larry, I'm so happy to read what you wrote, and to know that you are well along on the road to healing and integration. I am quite a thorough Babble reader, and I must say I never saw anything hurtful or harmful written by you.
Thank you.
> You contributed SO much valuable information, but this is something different- I think you are really talking about integrating tremendously painful memories and feeling-states into your adult self.
Precisely so. Maybe Humpty Dumpty didn't need king's horses and king's men, but instead, a good therapist.
> I have, and still am, doing the same thing. When we are doing that, I thinks it takes all the energy and courage we can muster, but it's so much better afterwards, isn't it?
Yes. It was worth every moment spent in preparation. It was worth every moment of terror, during. It was worth facing the aftermath. I only wish there was less of the latter.
I have a confidence in self that I never knew before. I have a fair bit of work ahead just getting used to the New Me®.
Also, there are ripples. Like space/time has been disturbed. Very brief moments of visual/auditory tremors, accompanied by a moment of apprehension. Quickly over. I take them to be "adjustments", like you might do with Velcro that didn't quite stick precisely where you wanted it.
You were the first person I ever saw use the phrase "ego state disorder", and you asked me to try it on. And it was the most useful idea of all. Thank you. Thank you for having the courage to publicly express an intuitive feeling.
Lar
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