Posted by Daisym on December 28, 2004, at 11:02:55
In reply to Re: Coexisting Ego States » daisym, posted by Pfinstegg on December 28, 2004, at 9:28:20
Thanks for the encouragement. I trust him. I just don't trust me. It feels like all the things in my life I used to know "for sure" I don't anymore. It makes sense, as you said, that this uncertainty is coming from the younger part of me.
I was thinking about the above thread on attachment and me and you and others here. I can't imagine doing this work if I wasn't sure he would be there, day after day, "just in case." He finally said it out loud last week: "You were so badly damaged and your ability to trust and receive comfort for your deepest feelings was destroyed. This has to be healed, over time and through our relationship." (We had been talking about some of my friends and their therapy, which looks nothing like mine.)
I still want a crystal ball which will show me how long this will take, or at least, how long before I can back myself off. At what point do you tell yourself that you must stand on your own two feet more, go to therapy less and remain steady without the frequent contact? Maybe this is what medication could do for me?
Are you having a hard time closing your younger self back up, in between sessions?
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