Posted by ClearSkies on September 22, 2006, at 23:02:23
The week started in the doctor's office, presenting my complaints having to do with my perimenopause experience. It's getting more uncomfortable and migraine filled every month, so I was looking for a more appropriate treatment to manage my symtoms. So I have a new prescription, and it gave me migraines. This led to sleep of worse and worse quality, until 2 nights ago, when I had no sleep at all. I tried all the sleep aids I could, but not all at once as I thought that might be a bad idea.
By the time it got to 3:30 am, I took 2 trazodone and was wiped out until 2pm. Woke up with the same unmovable migraine, resistant to any remedies. Spent that day with various migraine medications, meditations, cool packs, hot packs, silence, soothing music, tepid baths...
Was able to sleep last night with 2 trazodone only. It leaves me in a severe fog, unable to artulate my thoughts clearly, for hours and hours. Today, I've had 8 hours of sleep from the night before, and then another 2 hours halfway through the morning. The rest of the afternoon I felt awake alert and headache free.
I have a startling after-effect from this. Today I find myself feeling very low and worthless. I tried to compose this post 4 times and deleted it before I posted it. I feel that lately my posts have been as well intended as ever, but communicated really poorly. Unable to find the right way to express myself.
This doesn't feel like it will pass soon. I think the pain and frustration of this week has triggered this episode of beating myself up with a big stupid and hateful stick.
poster:ClearSkies
thread:688344
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