Posted by Ritch on May 8, 2003, at 1:22:08
In reply to kind of freaking out re: AD's, posted by bookgurl99 on May 7, 2003, at 22:43:02
> I am freaking out, because I have had a mind that I did not recognize for a whole year. I was taking Zoloft, and had all this trouble concentrating, memory problems, unhappy, headache, low energy.
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> Now, after tapering off, and "barely" starting on Serzone again (at 75 mgs), I feel like my old self again. I'm happy, joking, don't feel as out of it. My brain feels faster, more accessible, but also controlled -- not manic.
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> Is this just a placebo effect? The positive benefit of not being on zoloft? (of which withdrawal made me feel like my brain was being dragged around by a shoe string somewhere).
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> I'm freaking out because I don't want to be on meds for life, and here I feel my best on this one particular med (which also has the black box liver warning.). Is it that it altered my brain permanently, so that now I _need_ it?
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> What gives?
I've had these kind of worries in the last few years. Before all of these fancy new meds my moods/anxiety, etc. were only half-assed controlled by the older meds (and not being on them didn't make a whole hell lot of difference a lot of the time), and now there have been a few that seem to have quite dramatically positive results now and then. So, maybe the newer meds effectiveness is the "problem"? I've experienced some mild concerns lately about losing my meds on a trip or whatever and relapsing because of that.
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