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Posted by daveuk08 on August 25, 2008, at 14:46:24
I`m sorry.
I feel I`ve let everyone down.
I even feel I let Slinky down.
I`ve even let myself down.
I`ve let society down.
I`m so down.Hopefully tonight will be my last one.
Hopefully tonight I will go to sleep and never wake up again.
If I don`t tnen to everyone I know I`m sorry.
Posted by Hygieia's Bowl on August 25, 2008, at 15:04:40
In reply to Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 25, 2008, at 14:46:24
I'm very sorry for your pain.
Having lost someone in the manner you lost your Slinky it can be tempting to follow, that I understand. I also understand how very very painful life can become after such a circumstance. I also can say that, for me, life did get better.
I hope you stick around.
I really do.
Posted by WaterSapphire on August 25, 2008, at 18:06:29
In reply to Re: Sorry - trigger » daveuk08, posted by Hygieia's Bowl on August 25, 2008, at 15:04:40
please Dave, Stick with us here. I am so sorry for your loss. But, hang in there ok.
BIG HUGS
You will be in my thoughts and prayers
Chelle
Posted by fayeroe on August 25, 2008, at 18:21:41
In reply to Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 25, 2008, at 14:46:24
We're pulling for you to work through your pain. I think Slinky would want that for you. Pat
Posted by AbbieNormal on August 25, 2008, at 18:29:40
In reply to Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 25, 2008, at 14:46:24
Hey - you aren't even allowed to type the word *S*! You sure as *F* aren't allowed to consider it. You of all people know how much pain it causes.
Stop this right now, and call someone supportive who can come sit with you. Talk to them. Drink tea. Cry. And more tea. Biscuits too.
Hugs, Abbie.
Posted by zenhussy on August 25, 2008, at 18:54:14
In reply to Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 25, 2008, at 14:46:24
> I`m sorry.
> I feel I`ve let everyone down.
> I even feel I let Slinky down.
> I`ve even let myself down.
> I`ve let society down.
> I`m so down.
>
> Hopefully tonight will be my last one.
> Hopefully tonight I will go to sleep and never wake up again.
> If I don`t tnen to everyone I know I`m sorry.you haven't let anyone down Dave. please please please do not choose a permanent solution to temporary pains.....the pains might *seem* forever and unrelenting but they won't always be that way.
it worries us greatly to know so many ppl are suffering and w/o much, if any, hope.
all that we're able to do is type these words in hopes that they reach you or someone else at that place of utter despair and let you and anyone feeling like you do that they're not alone, they're not to blame, they're not at fault and they're worth the effort it takes to feel better, to get better, and to work on a lifetime of anything better than this dark place right now.
please don't leave us Dave.
peace
hussy
Posted by WaterSapphire on August 25, 2008, at 19:13:55
In reply to Re: Sorry » daveuk08, posted by zenhussy on August 25, 2008, at 18:54:14
Remember, even if it seems like just words. We all care about you and want you to find a way to get help and stick with us. Please Dave....
I am prayin for you to feel better soon
Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on August 25, 2008, at 22:07:36
In reply to Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 25, 2008, at 14:46:24
(((((Daveuk08))))))) Dave, I know it is easy to slip and feel like it never stops. But, compassion, empathy, love, are all enemies of depression and sorrow, and you need to feel that special warm glow inside. Hold onto these things Dave...hold them tight and close. Many of us here care about you, as many of us care about all psycho-babble folks. I am telling you right now I care...and yes I somehow hope you can grasp onto that and have it make you feel better. I know that feeling of being so utterly and desperately alone, as I've lost a fair bit too and had to, somehow, come back and do what they call "make some sort of life". I'll never, ever be the same, but the price of life, of "admission" I used to say, was that there where/are going to be cruel things done to you, like taking away people that you love. I used to be so angry about this, for years, and many years latter I've somehow reconciled it all out. That's what I say to myself, anyways...heh.
Take care bud....I am sending good energy and prayers your way in the cosmos. (And guys hugging guys is *still* cool :)
Posted by Bobby on August 25, 2008, at 22:31:39
In reply to Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 25, 2008, at 14:46:24
Personally---I think you add some really good character to the boards. I can see why Slinky loved you. Please stick around us misfits---we enjoy your company Dave--ok?
Posted by manic666 on August 26, 2008, at 4:04:55
In reply to Re: Sorry » daveuk08, posted by Bobby on August 25, 2008, at 22:31:39
DAVE MY MAIN MAN YOU JUST FOUGHT IN MY CORNER WHAT THE F/CK ARE YOU ON WITH. I NEED YOU DONT BE SELFISH AN MESS ME UP TO. YOUR MY NEW BUDDY I DIDNT NO YOUR LADY BUT SHE WONT WANT THIS , DONT SCREW ME UP WITH THIS SH/T. I JUST FOUND A NEW BUDDY I BEEN WERE YOU ARE AN IS DARK AN MISERABLE F/CK OF THE IDEA AN GET BACK HEAR OR IM LOST TO.YOUR NEW BUDDY MANIC666
Posted by daveuk08 on August 26, 2008, at 4:54:18
In reply to Re: Sorry, posted by manic666 on August 26, 2008, at 4:04:55
Hi,
Hygieia`s Bowl
WaterSapphire
fayeroe
AbbieNormal
zenhussy
Jay_Bravest_Face
Bobby
Manic666
and to everyone on babbleI`m not to good at the moment,I`ve got this horrible throbbing in my head,my mind cannot focus on things properly,pains in my legs if I do to much walking(over 100yds),this strangulation feeling round my neck since Ali died seems to be getting worse,body pains,etc,and then the shakes.All this seems to be never ending,all I want to do is die naturaly in my sleep.I can assure everyone that I would never take my own life,I am so down in myself,I have met lots of friends on babble and I could never hurt them,and I have lots of friends over here aswell,but nearly all them are in relationships or married,and it hurts me because I`ve lost Ali the biggest love of my life.Thank you for your concern,as I said will Never ever take my own life,I know first hand how it can affect people especialy those that are realy close to you,and I never ever would do anything to hurt anyone,even those that have hurt me.
I honestly don`t want to die,but with what my body is going through(something I have never expienced before in my life)right now,all I pray each night is that I die in my sleep.
I honestly feel that Ali regrets what she did,and she wnats me with her,I just wish she had left a note or some sign as to why.I miss her so much,she was my true soulmate.Dave.(Slinky`s Soulmate)
Posted by Hygieia's Bowl on August 26, 2008, at 7:49:59
In reply to Re: Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 26, 2008, at 4:54:18
Ah, Dave Dear,
I do so wish there were more we could do to be of help to you. I know of your great pain and well, just know folks do care very deeply about you and your wellbeing.
Great grief can be such great pain. I feel it will get better for you - unfortunately, I cannot tell you when.
Aside from "listening ears", can we do anything else that would be of help for you?
Posted by daveuk08 on August 26, 2008, at 8:07:21
In reply to Re: Sorry » daveuk08, posted by Hygieia's Bowl on August 26, 2008, at 7:49:59
Posted by Phillipa on August 26, 2008, at 10:53:16
In reply to Re: Sorry » daveuk08, posted by Hygieia's Bowl on August 26, 2008, at 7:49:59
Dave I just saw this and hope you will contact me and let me know you're okay. Hey I set up that e-mail account for you. So I care. Love Phillipa
Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on August 26, 2008, at 14:05:31
In reply to Re: Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 26, 2008, at 4:54:18
Dave....
You have such concern and empathy about others, and those are as good as any tools to help you along the way. I think I mentioned this before, and I really don't like to talk about it...you can probably guess why, but I too lost my "soulmate" (my true *love*..as well as the love I would have given my own life for, our child..and damn I thought how can any God be so bloody f*&^%ing insensitive???...I thought happiness was forever...then, anyways..) in an accident when I was about 25 years old. No two losses are "the same", and grief is always unique in many ways. I imagine the fact that Slinky choose the way she did, (and maybe the choice isn't as simple as that), it complicates things further for you. I was so full of deep rage, anger, tears, and pain after what happened, it took me ten years before I could actually go out and even just get a job again. Luckily I have very loving parents, who helped me through it all.
And it still hasn't ended...it never will.If you find some positive energy on here, grab it and hold it tight and close. Just take one day, one hour, one minute at-a-time. I used to think about my future, and it scared the hell out of me, so I would say to myself..."Something will come up.."
Best to you bud....
Jay
Posted by daveuk08 on August 26, 2008, at 14:58:40
In reply to Re: Sorry..Dave PLEASE read.... » daveuk08, posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on August 26, 2008, at 14:05:31
Thanks Jay,
Did you read my posting after Manic`s.
Here I go again,sorry for upsetting you,but everyone should know that the "S" word would never be done by me,I`m totally against "S"`s.Once again thanks for your concern(((Jay)))
Dave.
Posted by AbbieNormal on August 26, 2008, at 20:17:13
In reply to Re: Sorry..Dave read...Jay. » Jay_Bravest_Face, posted by daveuk08 on August 26, 2008, at 14:58:40
Well that's good cuz you scared the "SH" outta me! Did you ever go to a survivor support meeting? It might help...maybe to share with others IRL.
Abbie
Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on August 26, 2008, at 20:18:17
In reply to Re: Sorry..Dave read...Jay. » Jay_Bravest_Face, posted by daveuk08 on August 26, 2008, at 14:58:40
Sorry Dave, I apologize about the "S" words. I don't/didn't wish to trigger anything bad for you.
Your goodness and love are such powerful qualities. Don't ever let anybody tell you different.Jay :)
Posted by Phillipa on August 26, 2008, at 20:52:50
In reply to Re: Sorry..Dave ..I...apologize... » daveuk08, posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on August 26, 2008, at 20:18:17
Dave glad you wrote me today or would have been seriously worried don't know how to access that site. Phillipa
Posted by Gabbette on August 26, 2008, at 22:06:56
In reply to Re: Sorry..Dave read...Jay. » Jay_Bravest_Face, posted by daveuk08 on August 26, 2008, at 14:58:40
I guess we're all a wee bit twitchy you know, I was just thinking about how many people say "ugggh I just don't want to wake up"
and you know *S* isn't even being contemplated, but seeing it typed out it's hard to tell, and
well wow. I'm just so relieved to hear you say that.
Posted by WaterSapphire on August 27, 2008, at 2:18:48
In reply to Re: Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 26, 2008, at 4:54:18
HUGS Dave,
I will keep praying for you and hoping you
will feel better.
Posted by WaterSapphire on August 27, 2008, at 2:23:06
In reply to sending you virtual hugs, posted by WaterSapphire on August 27, 2008, at 2:18:48
Oh and just wanted to say I was not sure what you meant, but that I knew you were in a lot of pain so I did not know. I am pretty new on here after a long time not being on. I am so sorry for your pain and loss...
Posted by no_rose_garden on August 27, 2008, at 10:26:54
In reply to Sorry, posted by daveuk08 on August 25, 2008, at 14:46:24
Posted by daveuk08 on August 27, 2008, at 12:14:27
In reply to (((Dave))) (nm), posted by no_rose_garden on August 27, 2008, at 10:26:54
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