Posted by alexandra_k on December 21, 2013, at 19:36:11
In reply to Re: social reciprocity, posted by alexandra_k on December 21, 2013, at 11:26:22
sigh.
i'm alright. i hate this time of year. people simply will not give you the option of opting out of christmas. of treating it like just another day should that be what you choose to do. i guess that means there isn't enough diversity for people to have different holidays etc. gives the sheeple their way of monitoring the freaks who can't / won't do the whole social thing this time of year.
i'll probably do what i did last year... write a bit... get fairly drunk... then that will be that. i mean, it isn't like i can go for a walk or anything. one cannot be seen alone on christmas. bad enough at other times. i wonder if this is particularly hard for people because i'm female... but whatever whatever i can see your pity. ugh. people are gross.
i think it is a fear thing... you have to convince people that you desperately want them to like you. you desperately want them to accept you. if you don't do this... then you better be surrounded by other people. god forbid you prefer your own company. people will not let that be.
perhaps that is why it is hard to find people who can refrain from doing harm.
don't mind me... i'm just cranky... i need to get out... i need things to be back towards more normal... this part of the world goes on lockdown until january 3. it is the main summer holiday / crazy unnecessary festive season of the year...
i'm looking at doing an intro calculus course for summer school.
my phd... i don't know what is possible for me. i need to email my supervisor something... very soon. and see if he is still alive at the very least.
i'm scared.
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