Posted by alexandra_k on December 21, 2013, at 11:26:22
In reply to Re: social reciprocity, posted by alexandra_k on December 21, 2013, at 11:16:19
i got offered a place for bio-medical science
:)
happy. i was a little worried after declining health science (the only other pathway to med).
i...
i honestly don't know about med.
i...
i honestly don't know about the tropo thing, either. i was feeling all inspired after hot yoga, but i actually don't cope at all well with the heat. i feel... horribly naked exposing my arms and legs... and i just... feel like a freak. out of place for covering things (stand out). out of place for trying to dress 'normal' even. i can't pull the later off, anymore. it has been so long since i've had the money to spend on clothes... and that has always been a bit of a tricky thing for me... jeans and hoodies suits me better...
and the whole autistic thing... wtf is going to happen with that? i feel... like a freak. i... don't know that i'm going to get anything helpful out of community mental health. but they will make me practically f*ck*ng beg them to get anything at all. i feel... humiliated. miscommunications... the whole system is set up to make happy puppy noises...
the domain... i thought i'd enjoy it. the couple time i've walked in it... i was the only person walking by myself. the only person not with a partner or a family. no joke. people were staring at me. honestly. i don't get that from other places... but i got it constantly from the domain.
this is why people become morning people, i guess. that is why one wants to be a morning person. and take up swimming with your head under the water. or sailing... all these things that people do...
anyway... perhaps it is proximity. one must not stray too far from campus.
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