Posted by alexandra_k on December 15, 2013, at 16:57:31
In reply to Re: damn, posted by alexandra_k on December 14, 2013, at 17:54:54
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ezjL5xPmsnc
well...
surely this wasn't what nz meant when they talked about the 'shortage of general practitioners in rural communities'?
i was thinking that what they had in mind was more the model of the traditional english gp. who lived in some rural town in nz. who played club rugby. etc.
this is more...
i don't suppose that little pieces of paper (how many degrees you have) makes a damn of difference. i mean... i don't suppose that accumulating little pieces of paper is particularly important to making a difference. i feel a lot better now about maybe not getting a place in medicine. oh well. so i don't have to deal with the social interaction of mostly 18 year old rich kids who want to be doctor for the kudos. oh, poor, deprived, me. of course it is probably this latter thing they are trying to select against... and it was more that image that i thought they would have been selecting for... who the f*ck knows. anyway... i see now... i have to try and do this, yeah. next summer, i think. because it is going to cost a lot in flights. and possibly accommodation... depending... i can save up some of the money i get at the start of the year... they do say stuff about how you don't need to book... the particular island... things are flexible. it might be more of a situation of taking one or two days out per week. having a shower and padlocking the door for a decompress...
things that are easy for other people are often hard for me. and... vice versa. i couldn't learn to take the sports kids blood pressure... but i'm sure i'll learn quick smart if it actually mattered for anything... i feel good about this. f*ck hobbies and martial arts... i won't go quite so far as to say 'hello crossfit' but i think i'll just do a more generalist thing...
what am i thinking? i suppose... the first visit... the idea is to learn about the way things are. not try and change things. maybe that is always the idea. try and let things affect me without being so traumatised so that i can't see / do the stuff that actually does help. that was what traumatised me most over on the north shore: people couldn't see my need / respond to it (leave me alone). for their own various hang-ups and reasons... figure out a niche. will take time. i guess that is why it is better to take money and be able to have more regular isolation. especially if the locals are yelling all over the island so there really is no such thing as privacy / peace and quiet...
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