Posted by floatingbridge on May 20, 2011, at 9:55:34
In reply to Re: floatingbridge..., posted by redwood on May 20, 2011, at 7:48:09
Are you new here? If so welcome. If not, it's great to meet you. I'm not sure if your post is addressing Christ_Empowered, but here I am. This entire thread has been something wonderfully spontaneous.
Did something happen in 2008 that triggered the cptsd? I'm not asking you to share details. I'm more curious about
onset, esp since you have cptsd.I was always troubled but looked functional though compensated greatly. An emergency c-section is what kicked it all in for me. Then, after surgery, having a baby when my own childhood was so barren and lonely and fraught with fear.
Then I began to remember the rapes as teen and young adult. They were called
date rapes, so I thought they didn't matter--that I needed to just suck it up and grow up.Childbirth focused all that. That and
staring into the clear eyes of my child. I felt contaminated.Isn't there somewhere in the Bible about
a holiness that defiles--next to my son I felt defiled? How could I possibly be a good mom?I'm pleased to report that through therapy and meds I feel worthy of my
son--he needs me and I understand him. I'd do about anything for him. I guess
we all need someone like that in our cornerI wanted to try the med you mentioned stablon is the trade name. Guess you're in the US. Me too.
What symptoms are you treating? I'm not familiar with epilim.
Warmly,
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* and whoever gazes at the stars will never again be quite alone...
c-ptsd & attendant health concerns
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