Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on February 3, 2008, at 21:39:44
In reply to Re: Need desperate supportgoing on alone.. » Jay_Bravest_Face, posted by Kath on February 3, 2008, at 16:58:05
Hi Kath:
Thanks so much. Ummm..Its 5HTP and Passionflower, and am experimenting with Rhodiola(sp?). I did notice in the distant past, that folic acid and selenium aggravated my anxiety sometimes. But, your body chemistry is of course made up different. Now, if I was feeling really, really bad, I am sure there would be no place for those herbs. But, just to maintain, they help with the clonazepam to keep in my best form.Another thing also struck me. Ive been on meds for about 14 years now. I started when I was about 24, and now am 38. I am wondering that if my changing body chemistry, getting towards middle age, as a male, has maybe helped me some too. Maybe I dont have those hormones racing through me like I did in my 20s. I REALLY cant believe how calm, and rational I have been. Ive got French-Canadian, Danish, and Irish blood in me, so I was used to being a bit edgy. I still feel pissed off at some people, but its not a seething anger that keeps me awake.
Plus, I start to feel excited about things again. Just imagining some of my dreams, hopes, and how I know that if I really put my mind to them, they will likely come true. Of course I still have some of my downers, especially my fears around loss, death of others, and grief. I carry a lot of difficult emotions when it comes to grief. But, those will be there with me until my time is up, and I am spending lots of time doing the deeper work, and I still tear up about it. That is perfectly finethats the price of being human.
Thanks so much for ALWAYSalwaysalways.kindly being supportive. You are a wonderful human beingand need to recognize that. Same goes for so many on here who have been there time after time after time.
Thanks.peace..and best..,
Jay :-)
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