Posted by KaraS on February 23, 2005, at 22:23:56
In reply to Re: Kara, my turn. How you are doing? » KaraS, posted by TamaraJ on February 23, 2005, at 16:46:53
Hi,
> -- Oh Kara, I'm so sorry to hear that :-( Would your friend give you another Reiki treatment? Then at least you would know if it helped. You also mentioned you were using the lightbox for over a half an hour at a time. Maybe you are getting some serotonin overload? I can imagine how the weather would be getting to you. A rainy day or two is nice once in a while, but day after day can be draining. I hope it lets up for an extended period of time soon. But, enjoy the nice days when you have them.
Thanks. It was a real bummer to wake up and not feel the same as yesterday. It's so strange and disturbing.> -- That's what the accupunturist told me. I did notice an improvement, but she told me that I would notice an even better improvement when the iron deficiency was taken care of. I am thinking of going back in the spring. It wasn't expensive, and my insurance will cover 80% of the cost up to a certain amount. And, she was really good and knowledgeable.
Someday I'll try that as well. For now I hope to discipline myself more to use the acupressure techinques. If you have so much of it covered by insurance, then you should definitely try it again.
> -- No, it was a drag! I usually enjoy the winter for the most part, and try to stay active with walking and stuff. When I had the cast on, I couldn't get a really good winter coat on or even mitts. And, we were having a real cold spell (about -30 to -40 with the wind), so it was really not possible to get out when I couldn't bundle up. Excuses, excuses!Sounds more like a good reason than an excuse to me. After hearing about the -30 and -40 degrees out there, I think I should stop complaining about rain.
> -- That's too bad about the Zoloft. I can't hurt to try it during the day to see if you can tolerate it. And, you could always take a small amount of niacinimide to quell the anxiety, couldn't you? And, it is worth trying the Wellbutrin again. I mean, look at how differently you responded to Effexor the second time. A second trial of Wellbutrin may well yield different results too. Good luck with that!
I'll try the Zoloft tomorrow during the day. I'm only on 12.5 mg. so I'm not terribly optimistic about being able to get to a therapeutic dosage. I don't think the niacinamide would do much either because it didn't help against my sensitivity from the Effexor. Wellbutrin trial is way off in the future but I agree it's worth another shot.
> -- I hope it works. My mood was improving somewhat before I started taking it (maybe because I was eating better and had a number of nights of uninterrupted sleep). So, what I am really struggling with now is lack of motivation and some apathy. It's scary to feel like that because you know you want to do things, but you just can't seem to get going. Yuk!
I know. The apathy is a tough one. I struggled with that for a long time. I didn't fully understand how much the medication was adding to that before I started hanging out here. Now I'm beginning to forgive myself for not getting anything accomplished in these last few years.
I had to take some time off from a job many years ago. It felt like failure at first but it was the best thing I ever did (not that I really had a choice - I wasn't functioning well at all). I needed to get healthy again and get the anxiety under control. Then I went back to the job healthier, calmer and in control. If you can, try to think of your time off as you doing something wonderful for yourself in order to take care of yourself.
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> -- Ya, I had to (I have felt so ashamed about that, but I realize now that these things happen). It was hard, and I was beating myself up and berating myself for a while for having to take a leave. I felt like such a disappointment to everyone - like I let everyone down. But, I am dealing with those feelings. So, hopefully I will one day not be so angry with myself, particularly for something I had no control over.Absolutely you need to forgive yourself because you did nothing wrong. You were sick and you needed to take time off to get well again. It's not easy to stop feeling guilty about it - especially if you're a perfectionist like me and expect that you have to live up to unrealistic standards.
Have you ever read the book "The Power of Now" by Eckart Tolle? I just ordered it from the library. I have a feeling it's the kind of book you would enjoy and that might help you with some things. I'll let you know how I find it.
> -- I haven't read the thread yet, but have bookmarked it and will read it tonight. I don't know if I told you, but I have lost my family doctor. She has had to close her practice due to illness. I am so upset :-( Not because I have to find a new doctor, but because she was such a great doctor - very thorough and knowledgeable. She has been my doctor for close to ten years, and she understands many of the problems I have had because she has experienced them herself (including panic and anxiety which she talked about openly with me). But, now I can probably change pdocs if I chose to. I don't think I would have been able to do that with her because your family doctor needs to refer you, and the pdoc she referred me to was not only a long-time friend of hers, but someone she respected greatly.The CES thread starts before the three posts that are showing now on the board. It might make sense to start at the beginning.
That's too bad about your gp doctor. It's so hard to find good ones who will listen to you and work with you (let alone one who has experienced it herself and openly talks about it). Did she refer you to someone else who is good? On the bright side, if you need to change pdocs, now you can. Hopefully you won't need to but it's nice to have that safety net.
Wishing you the best too,
Kara
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