Posted by ramsea on June 18, 2004, at 3:16:01
In reply to Re: why people ignore me, posted by AuntieMel on June 17, 2004, at 12:57:50
I am so impressed with the replies I've received. You people sound highly intuitive with great powers of survival. I am not putting myself down, but I think I tried too hard to fit in. You say you realized and then emphasized your oddness--which is like making lemonade out of lemons, that sort of thing, right? I did the opposite. I realized my family/teachers/classmates found me odd, but tried so hard to be whatever it was that was supposed to be good. So I read up on it, copied what I could. But even so my weirdness shone through. A girl wrote in my yearbook in 6th grade, "To A Neat Nut That I Like." I wasn't unlikeable, I was just different for a variety of reasons. When I read up on Asperger's last year I was dumstruck. Chills up and down my spine. All of the descriptions I read sounded as if I had written them---it was my life. But my pdoc says it is all explained by untreated bipolar. He's probably right, but it still doesn't take away from thr fact that reading those biographies and descriptions made sense for the first time in my life for the way I experience sensory stimuli, don't "get" social interactions except coming at it sideways through careful and often mistaken analysis, and so on.
I just hope you keep having lots of fun and I totally admire how you've made an asset out of eccentricity. And haven't been handcuffed to misery along the way. Stay well.
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