Posted by Angel Girl on May 26, 2004, at 9:04:46
I'm going through another down period. It doesn't really matter why, it's something trivial that got out of hand, just like the last one a couple of weeks ago. Again, I feel like I don't belong anywhere in this world except for with people who are also suffering from some type of mental illness. I can't seem to get along with anybody else no matter how hard I try, I'm too different, we can't relate to each other. Sometimes I feel it's not even worth trying anymore, all I get is rejection and hurt and God knows I've already had enough of that to last a lifetime. I don't want any more. I haven't felt this way since I was severely depressed and suicidal. Don't worry I'm not suicidal now. I guess I'm just realizing that I've regressed back to where I started at a rapid rate. Too many things happening to me that are really hurting me a lot lately. Nobody understands me. I'm so depressed again.
Anyway, I've been playing one of my fave CDs a lot lately and all of a sudden the lyrics of one of the songs jumped out at me. It's how I feel about my life right now. I've heard this song a million times before and never thought about it in that way before, it was just a song as any other but today I noticed that I can totally relate to the lyrics. Here are the lyrics.
BTW, when reading the lyrics, just change the word 'you' to 'life'
A Place In The Sun - Tim McGraw
Long ago, far away
I felt your (life's) lovin’ glow upon my face
Was it a dream or just a promise made
What is my destinySomeday I’ll find a way to shine
Leave all these rainy days behind
I know there’s got to be
Some place warm and bright for me
I’m running out of places I can run
Looking for a place in the sunDarkness hangs overhead
Close to the point where angels fear to tread
I close my eyes and think of you (life) instead
And pray you’ll (life) be here soonSomeday I’ll find a way to shine
Leave all these rainy days behind
I know there’s got to be
Some place warm and bright for me
I’m running out of places I can run
Looking for a place in the sunSometimes it feels like this whole world’s against me
And every beaten path
Is just another winding road that tempts me
Far from you (life) and all that’s true
I’ve got to find my way againSomeday I’ll find a way to shine
Leave all these rainy days behind
I know there’s got to be
Some place warm and bright for me
I’m running out of places I can run
Looking for a place in the sunYeah I’m running out of places I can run
Looking for a place in the sun
Oh, won’t you (life) shine down on me Sunshine?
I feel like I've lost my place in the sun, my place in life and I have to find my way back and leave all this depression behind. I'm back to where I was in the very beginning of this hell except I don't have the suicidal thoughts this time.Angel Girl :(
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