Posted by SandyWeb on April 21, 2004, at 7:40:53
In reply to Re: » jlynne, posted by SandyWeb on April 21, 2004, at 7:27:51
I meant to add to my message, but the ole brain fogged out on me:
I had been thinking about "hurting myself" this week. I had been sinking rather low, and I didn't even have any feelings left.
That visit couldn't have come at a better time. I don't think they appreciate the significance of showing up when they did. They don't know.
Maybe someday, when this is all behind me, I'll let them in on it. It's funny how something so tiny as an unexpected visit (from people you like) can change your outlook upon the day.
Oh gosh, I hope I don't sink again. If only we could keep moving upwards, right? Ah well, I am prepared to feel suicidal again.....but I also know that if I just hold on and not act impulsively, I'll survive.
Had to surf when you've never had lessons!! LOL!!!
Take care!
Sandy
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