Posted by LynneDa on December 22, 2003, at 16:19:12
In reply to Re: Saturday, posted by geri122 on December 22, 2003, at 14:45:44
Geri - You are NOT worthless! You just happen to live with people who are self-occupied, poor communicators and probably unsure how to handle a teen-ager! I know that doesn't make it better, but try not to let the faults and weaknesses of others reflect on how you feel about YOU. You are a wonderful person - sensitive, caring compassionate, expressive and kind.
I completely understand that you are exhausted and tired of dealing with the whole thing. So, don't deal with it. Just live your life. What if you didn't pretend? What if you were just you - the way you actually feel? I don't mean be rude or beligerent, but don't worry so much about the image you're presenting. It's a huge thought, to take a step or 2 out of your established circle and role in the family or with friends, I know. But it would certainly take the pressure off of you if you could do it. Even for a day, or just an hour!
I am glad your friend confided in you about her depression too. That's got to be a big relief, not to be so alone! It does take some mental energy to listen to others' problems, but if it's a sharing session, then don't be so worried about her ability to listen to your sadness. You don't need to take responsibility for her emotional load - that is for her to decide!! If you can learn to let go of a little of that worry, you'll be waaaaaayyyy ahead of me and save yourself years of therapy and probably save you from choosing the wrong man!!!
What kinds of questions are you referring to at the end of your post that you don't want to answer but you don't want to lie? Just the general, "what's wrong?" or "how are you doing?"
What you're living through right now is so hard, but you will get through it, it's just going to take more time. You are in the first stage - before getting help - which is the hardest. Please, please consider talking to a doctor, friend's parent, teacher, any older person you know (older sibling of a friend)etc. You don't have to dump the whole load on him or her. Just waving a red flag or 2 could help alert someone you're hurting.
Hang in there sweetie, you are worth it and I want you to look yourself in the mirror every morning and night and tell yourself "I am worth it!" Sounds corny & it is very hard to do, but you've got to replace some of the negative self-talk and negative vibes you feel coming at you with something positive. It really will help you after a while of doing it :-)
~ Lynne
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