Posted by kara lynne on December 14, 2003, at 12:29:12
In reply to Re: Ambien not working. » kara lynne, posted by deirdrehbrt on December 14, 2003, at 11:44:56
Thank you so much for your kind words dee. I'm big time in the abandonment reaction, feeling the desperation of wanting to be a 'good girl, I promise'.
I slept bad, I feel raw. Falls asked me who loved me and all I could come up with was kojak. But I really meant it.
You're right about how certain men have a pattern of shifting the blame; my ex was certainly one of them. But I'm so stuck right now in that he doesn't care...I guess he knew exactly what to say to make me fixate on that.
Because if I don't fixate on that I might focus on the anger, which I do believe is righteous in this case. But it's amazing how it can be turned against me so easily--I don't need to do it myself because he did it for me! He turned it right back around so fast my head was spinning. I guess that's something to be aware of; I showed true anger and got punished and rejected forever.
Yes, I am afraid. This is a scary place. Thank you for understanding.
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