Posted by Jai on November 24, 2003, at 21:16:53
In reply to Re: birds and all that jazz » Jai, posted by Larry Hoover on November 24, 2003, at 8:10:18
> I have both kinds. I know what you mean.
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Well, I never thought of that keep both friends....hummm. novel idea.
> > I have a poem called "Home is Where the Fear is"
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> I don't know I want to read that, or not.
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It's a very heavy poem, I read it at my women's circle and they were impressed. recently I re-read it and it's a deep, terrifying ride.
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> That's a lovely bit of prose, that.
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You sound so Irish. I just finished an Irish novel, "Reading in the Dark" by Seamus Deane. It's a good read.
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> One episode, I was simply near catatonic. I was warehoused (hospitalized) for that one.
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what did that feel like to be housed inside of?
My mother was catatonic after my birth...for months. I am so curious how that must have felt. what does the world look like?
Another was quite different....I was active physically, but I was so suicidally fixated that I could not look at anything without interpreting it as an agent of my death. More than that, I'd have trouble expressing in words.
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This is ugly. I must admit, I too have pondered the exit mucho. It's only recently that I can say that it's not an option anymore. Never thought that would happen.
> Oh, OK. Reiki or similar. I do that (but not recently, come to think of it). Again, a funding issue.
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I got a free hour of Reiki...wow. I loved the relaxation. Money, money, money, it's such a hurdle to get over.
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> I don't have any health insurance. I get basic medical care free (I'm in Ontario),
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oops! You are further North....by far. I am in the states but abutting Canada. Not really too far from you. I am originally from Wisconsin. some of my ancestors are from Canada/ Ireland. You know the famine...the death boats that came into Canada refused entry into New York harbor.
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> > > PTSD permanently changes your biochemistry, if it arises from childhood
> You won't find that in any textbook (yet), I wouldn't think, but laboratory experiments involving primates have demonstrated that if a persistent or recurrent critical stressor occurs during a developmental window (crudely analogous to a good chunk of human childhood), the biochemical response to subsequent stressors is not only different than that of unstressed individuals, but it remains different for the rest of the life span. I believe that many of the poorly explained disorders of adulthood (multiple chemical sensitivity, fibromyalgia, certain forms of arthritis, chronic fatigue syndrome, irritable bowel, and some psychiatric disorders in the mood/anxiety spectrum) arise as sequelae of childhood trauma. PTSD may be easier to link directly to childhood trauma, but the others are secondary sequelae, IMHO.
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wow this is harsh. I am so sad that I may be changed beyond my control. Oh well.
> I had a reference to the research on my old 'puter. I'll see if I can dig it up again.
> I would be every so appreciative.
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Once again, thank you Lar for being so responsive and interested. I am touched.
Jai
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