Posted by Jai on November 23, 2003, at 10:45:50
In reply to Re: what can I say? » Jai, posted by Larry Hoover on November 23, 2003, at 8:02:46
> You couldn't see the twinkle in my eye, from over there, eh?
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It's a funny thing about this board, I am so nervous to respond with humor. One persons humor can be anothers insult.
> Or, did I misunderstand, and you were discriminating between precipitating events and sequelae?
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For example: my mother's family has late onset bipolar. My mother gave birth to me when she was 33 (perfect set up for the onset) But the previous birth (my sibling) was very upsetting and deadly. They both almost died. So my mother was terribly afraid to be pregnant again. Irish & Catholics in the 1950's etc....
She did and it was me. It was poisonous from the conception...it's a mircle I am still alive and that was only the beginning. So between the pregnancy and the timing she went into a tail spin. Back then they used insulin shock treatment...oh boy this it getting too long. Anyway she had breakdowns every 2 to 2 1/2 years of my life. She just died this year and we had her funeral on Aprils Fools day (not our choice believe me)......the whole story could fill a book.
so to get back to the point, I saw every breakdown coming and got real good at spotting the signs. God what a job for child?!! So it appears she might have had them anyway but who knows she never had time to recover and really rest. p.s. (She also has late onset Schizophrenia) > > > >
> I just wanted to make a point that honesty should also include honest feelings, e.g. respect and empathy.
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Very good point and I may say you are a good example.
> Emotionally. My dominant memories are of terror.We are birds of a feather.
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Moreover, I have no recollection, ever, of being so much as hugged. It may have happened, but I don't recall it....it certainly and absolutely did not happen enough.
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I too was not given enough physical love (throw in some sexual abuse!!)and support. It took me forever as an adult to be able to get massages. Now I love it. It took me a long time to accept love and kindness. All that broke down and now I feel so much more open.
> > Current diagnoses include: treatment-resistant major depression, dysthymia (so-called double depression),I have never heard of this double depression, it sounds so intense. Should I look it up or can you share about it?
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chronic fatigue syndrome
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it sounds like the negative stuff is still in your tissues. have you heard of reconnection therapy? My sister does it to her clients. I have never done it myself. I guess she helps people release.
> Yes. It worked wonders on the acute form, but I ran out of treatments before trying to address the other.
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I did EMDR for a solid year and I am amazed to see who I am now. For one thing I don't tremble anymore...I used to store tension in my body all the time. I used to have one emotional reaction to everything...FEAR. No longer, I have choices now.
> 2. Renew Life Oil Smart?
> I use a lot of essential oils...is that what's in there?
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What essential oils do you use? Renew Life makes Oil Smart, a formula that helps in irritable bowel syndrome. It's a supplement.
> What happens to you with Valerian? stimulated?
> How the heck did you know that?
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What's with that? Do you know why it does that? It almost seems toxic.
I hope to hear from you again.
It's a beautiful day out and I am off to see some birds, hopefully. Last night we went out canoeing & saw a river otter. It was so moving than I had tears running down my face. I have never seen one alive before. It was so curious about us...it came in real close to get a good look. It went away and came back and barked at us in a friendly way.
talk to you soon.
Jai
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