Posted by femlite on October 9, 2003, at 0:10:34
In reply to Re: Pain, posted by HannahW on October 7, 2003, at 18:53:08
>> I've been following these threads, and reading the archives. I wasn't around when these things happened, so I didn't feel I had any right to make any posts.
I also am relatively new. And I feel my story has to be told for whatever it may add. I hope it will help.
I too have changed my name,once.
When I first posted here I was in a very volitile and cynical frame of mind, not sure of what i would find, or if i wanted to stay.
When my thoughts and feelings settled, I wanted to be a member, a contributer to this communty.Femlite has always been my screen name for all sites i participate in. As i began to feel comfortable, I wanted to be seen as someone who wanted to contribute and not like the hesitant, doubting person I was for the first month of posts.
I know my situation is very different. And I hope I have not offended any one. There are as mnay reasons why someone might do such a thing as there are people.
I suppose thats why we need moderators
>>I, personally, feel a loss that the board doesn't feel as safe anymore. I feel a loss that, because I'm new, people are suspicious of me, when all I want is to connect and feel included.DITTO DITTO DITTO
I have felt envious of some of the seemingly close and personal relationships I have noticed. And as I read Hannahs words, I wondered and i hoped , wondered if that was the real reson it seemed hard to connect and deepen relationships
(lack of trust caused by situations that occured before my time) and I hoped that if that were the reason, i might have cause for rejoicing (its not just me :) Time will tell. time cures many things, thank goodness.>> which gave me hope that I might be accepted with all of my inadequacies too,
Ditto Ditto :) :)
>> I'm not in any position to make any judgements,Nor am I. Please take this at face value.
I do not mean to make light or belittle what has happened here, but it is my way
to light a candle, and pray for that light to grow and any confussion to disapear.You have all helped me so much.
warmest regards to all
poster:femlite
thread:266224
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