Posted by yesac on June 29, 2003, at 12:17:47
In reply to Re: WHY????????, posted by Penny on June 28, 2003, at 20:59:54
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> Well, I was doing well for a long time (since about March or so, which is a long time for me), with only one *minor* dip a couple of months ago.Yeah, I've been doing "well" for about 3 weeks and that seems incredibly long to me. It's the longest period of time that I've stayed fairly okay in ages it seems like. "Well" of course being a very relative term.
> Anyway, since I had been doing well, my pdoc wanted to try me on a stimulant (I've already been on Provigil for the sleepiness, and it worked for a little while but then no more), to help keep me awake all day, at least until I see if I have an 'official' sleep disorder, so he tried me on Adderall XR. I was taking Geodon (I also take Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Lamictal and Levoxyl), but we stopped the Geodon and started the Adderall. Needless to say, my mood dropped quickly and I paged him and he took me off the Adderall and put me back on the Geodon, then, shortly after, we increased the Zoloft, and then, earlier this week, increased the Zoloft again. But, this time, to no avail. It had all been working so well for me until we started playing with them. I was doing 'well', though there was still a lot of room for improvement. But anyway...
That's too bad. I guess it is hard to ever know whether to leave well enough alone. I mean, who wants to be stuck with mediocre?
> I just got back from a Walmart run (needed dog food!) and an ice cream trip to Maple View Farms, all while listening to Aerosmith (which, corny as it sounds, is the only thing sometimes that gets
Sometimes those trips to walmart and other such things can be a real life-saver, literally. Sometimes not. Sometimes I'll end up feeling substantially better after going, other times I'll just fall right back down. I actually went to Walmart yesterday as well, but I just ended up feeling really frustrated and pissed off with so many people there, not being able to find a parking space (not to mention that some lady stole my spot - I had my directional on before she did but she turned in anyway - God did that piss me off!). And it made me depressed about money.
> only talked to my roommate very briefly today, and haven't talked to anyone else (thank god).
It's surprising sometimes how many days go by and I don't really talk to anyone. Yesterday, I only talked to a friend I visited in prison (we're penpals, he's actually on death row), and talked to my friend on the phone. Which is more than some other days. I don't even talk at all to my roomates most days.
> Anyway, I wanted to ask you, have you ever been to the depression support group in Carrboro, run by the Orange Co. Mental Health Association? Are there any other support groups in our area that you know of? I'm not aware of any...
I haven't gone. I know the director of the MHAOC so it would be somewhat of a problem for me. I haven't really looked into any others. Maybe I should. Have you asked your therapist for suggestions?
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> I was in an intensive outpatient program in Charlotte last summer and I SO wish I was in one now, though I couldn't work my work schedule around it even if there was one. But group therapy was soooo helpful to me.I've been interested in group therapy and also the outpatient programs, but it seems difficult with work, which I would not want to give up. I was only in a group once briefly in college and I think maybe I wasn't really ready for it so it didn't help much. The only outpatient program I know of around here is Holly Hill, and I don't even know much about it. But it seems like there must be others.
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> Thanks, yesac.Sure. It's kind of nice actually to be able to discuss local stuff!
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