Posted by Oddipus Rex on May 4, 2003, at 21:40:20
In reply to The Living Dead, posted by magic potion on May 4, 2003, at 20:05:06
> The thing that scares me is that people who post here are all on a different level than I am. I think my group can't get out of bed.
>I feel a lot of times that everyone here is doing a lot better than me. Not that they are suffering less but that they are coping better and functioning better. I feel like I'm a failure even at being depressed :(
I think you're right that a lot of times people feel like their lives are rotten because they really are and that not enough attention is paid to finding a life worth living. But I do think some medication can give you a boost so that you are able to start trying to change your life. I've had problems with ADs making me apathetic and I think that's a big danger but if your aware of that possibility you can try to monitor yourself for it. I also have been afraid that I would be numbed into accepting an unacceptable life. I think therapy is a great idea if you want to change your life not just be medicated into accepting it.
I don't see how you came to the conclusion that this is the life God planned for you.
I understand how you feel about writing CBT homework. Maybe you could do something behavioural instead of written. For awhile my "assignment" was to do one thing a day I didn't want to do-that was easy to find, getting out of bed or getting dressed would do. And I also had to do one thing I would have enjoyed if I were able to enjoy anything. And that was harder to find because it was hard to remember ever enjoying anything but I would drink a cup of coffee or listen to music for a few minutes. It didn't matter whether I enjoyed or not, the idea was just to do it.
I think you can start caring again. Or that you do care and you can start feeling it again.
> Is there anyone out there who doesn't have the will to live? Do they sell a pill that makes you care about life?
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> I have a prescription for Lexapro but why bother filling it? Why should I trick myself into thinking that my life is good when it isn't?
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> Regarding CBT (what recent research shows works for depression)...it's too much work for depressed people. Who are they kidding? I'm not going to write down s*#t. I can barely get out of bed and these goofballs think homework will help me. Apparently, they've mistaken me for someone who cares.
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> They (CBTers) want to teach you to question your faulty logic...well, if yesterday was horrible and last week was horrible...and last year was horrible....and five years ago my life was horrible, wouldn't it be logical, then, to assume that the rest of my life will be horrible, too?
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> I can't see how counseling will change my life.
> It isn't my perception that sucks; it's my reality.
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> My heart is beating and I have brain activity, but I am not truly living. I am sitting in my room rotting away. This is the life God has planned for me.
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> What do pdocs do when you will not do anything to help yourself? All I want is for them to fix my external reality, not to play head games and fake me into believing that life is good.
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> Is there hope for people who don't care? Or is that when they strap you up and shock you?
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