Posted by Dinah on January 12, 2003, at 3:06:56
In reply to Re: Lonely is the night » Dinah, posted by Miller on January 11, 2003, at 22:13:08
You could have my opinion, if I had one. :) But believe it or not, I don't. I'm afraid I really don't have enough information about the situation. And even if I did, I couldn't judge what's best for you (other than staying alive).
I'm sorry about your husband. I asked mine tonight to hold the Klonopin for a few nights. The result was as expected. "I AM NOT ANGRY. I'M JUST CONCERNED." Not terribly helpful, although I do understand.
I am sorry you're feeling so bad, Miller. But why are you sure you need to die to feel better? How do you even know that you will feel better if you die? I always have this vague fear that reincarnation is real. That there is some sort of cosmic "Groundhog Day" going on that won't let us finish until we get it right.
Are you going to tell your soon to be ex therapist about your disappointment? About how much you had invested in the idea of concentrated sessions? What would your on-line psychologist think about that?
Obsessions about suicide are part of our illness. If they aren't being adequately addressed by your current medication, you might want to consult a psychopharmacologist. As much as I believe in therapy, there is only so much it can do without a stable medication base in place. And suicidal ideation can be treated with medication. If you're currently getting your meds from a family physician, you may want to ask for a referral to a good psychopharmacologist. He could help you see your obsessions as part of your illness.
I really would like to see you stick around, Miller. Perhaps it's selfish of me, but I like you, and wouldn't like to see you give up on yourself.
Dinah
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