Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? » coral

Posted by snowden on October 30, 2002, at 19:22:47

In reply to Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how??, posted by coral on October 30, 2002, at 18:45:04

Coral,
For me the anxiety comes from the lying that I do in order to binge, hide my ED, etc. I find myself caring about him, and I haven't allowed that in awhile. I always cut relationships off before they get to know how screwed up I really am. :) I feel so selfish because while I should be excited to see him, I cancel just so that I can binge. It seems that's the only thing that gives me real pleasure anymore. It's been pretty bad lately and I feel like my anxiety is going through the roof. I want so much to take part in this relationship, but I find myself so unwilling to give up my vices in order to do so. It terrifies me that I have to give up my "friend" (ED) I'm so used to being by myself, it's hard to let someone interrupt my "routine"
Thanks for listening, I had a counseling appt for today, but she cancelled on me!! I was supposed to see him tonight, but, gee, something came up...(HA HA...)

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do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? snowden 10/29/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? » snowden NikkiT2 10/29/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? snowden 10/29/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? » snowden judy1 10/30/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? » snowden Ted 10/30/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? coral 10/30/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? » coral snowden 10/30/02
Will you do me a favor? » snowden judy1 10/30/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? coral 10/30/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? » coral snowden 10/30/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? coral 10/31/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? » snowden NikkiT2 10/31/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? » snowden judy1 10/31/02
Re: do i tell him about bpd/eating disorder?? how?? snowden 10/31/02
Thank you all for your insight... snowden 10/31/02
I'm really happy for you, good luck! :-) (nm) » snowden judy1 10/31/02

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