Posted by mashogr8 on October 24, 2002, at 21:40:06
In reply to Re: Thanks for listening . . . . » Greg A., posted by Dinah on October 24, 2002, at 18:03:14
Greg, I am so sorry that things are not going well.
You wrote a post some time ago in March or February, I think that I printed out because it was extremely helpful for me to hang on just one more time. Of course, I cna't find it now but I'll keep looking.
What I would like to say is no money in the entire world will help your children do without you. You know how teenagers are but you don't know how much they do wnat to hsare there life with their parents when they are 23 and 28. Suicide will deprive them of having you as a stabilizing influence or soundding board in their future. I've been reluctant to discuss my depression with my girls over the last fifteen years. But as they have aged (23 and 29 now), they have said they wished I had talked to them more about depression. And more importantly, how relieved they were that I had not succeeded or followed through on one of my hate myself times. YOur girls really are not that young to find out if they have any questions about what ECT means to them and how they might feel about it if their friends do know or might find out. You don't need to go into a lot of details with them. Encourag them to ask questions. Give them answers. Tell them how hard it is. Tell them they need not be afraid to talk of their own fears and down times. Let them see over and over how you are fighting literally for your life. Show them the lifelines that are available by using those lifelines yourself. YOu can't just dump life. If you give up, they will too. If you keep trying, your presence will have an effect on them that could never be measured.
Some of your best friends are here. Don't leave us either. You are needed. Drive around all you want but come home in the end.
Take care and please hang on.
MA
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