Posted by Greg A. on October 24, 2002, at 0:05:27
Just when I thought I was finished my course of ECTs, my doc managed to slip in a couple more. I am still off work. I am still antisocial. I am still not at all sure that I want to continue to be. I had this idea that something as extreme as ECT - or at least as extreme sounding - would be just what the doctor ordered to bring about a new me. What do I get??? The same old me. Minus a few 'friends' who can't handle the idea of ECT - but not depression free and confidently facing the world. I even missed my pdoc appointment yesterday. First time I have ever just blown off an appt. I drove around last night pondering whether 'to be or not to be'. I finally arrived at a friend's house - a mother of a friend of one daughter's - who happens to be a nurse. I think I surprised the crap out of her. She was passingly familiar with my troubles with depression (as I have never tried to conceal much) but had no answers. I went there because it was a safe place to go.
What am I trying to say here? Nothing in particular - just that something had better give here on the plus side, in the very near future. I am running out of alternatives.
Thanks for listening.
poster:Greg A.
thread:31585
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