Posted by paxvox on June 8, 2002, at 21:09:02
In reply to To share with all of you..., posted by Penny on June 5, 2002, at 16:12:36
So, Penny, how did the interview go? Your posts are so deeply emoting, I can clearly see that you are both highly intelligent, as well very tenuous and unsure of how you *feel* about yourself. Explain, if you will, why you talk about suicide. You seem to have quite a bit going for you positively, why the utter dispair. What has your Pdoc said about this? How are you being medically treated? Who do you have to love, and who loves you back? When I have walked along that jagged edge, or coursed along the sea walls, contemplating the direction I should choose, I have always come back to the question of love.
If you have love, and are loved, you cannot think about suicide as any real alternative, because it affronts the very nature of love. I know the pain, the hopelessness, the deep pits of dispair, the feeling that *why can't it just end ?*
I have turned away from the brink every time because I love my daughter too much to cause her that kind of pain, and she loves me, as I am, unequivocally. These times will pass away. Find someone to hold on to, who will hold you back. There's no place for you in the pit.PAX
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