Posted by beardedlady on June 7, 2002, at 6:49:20
In reply to to sleep oh how sweet to sleep..., posted by alii on June 7, 2002, at 4:05:06
This is a toughy. I don't know your dx. If it were depression coupled with insomnia, I'd say go for what I take, Serzone. I take it at night before bed--a little at 9:30, a little when I wake up in the middle of the night (not recommended that way, but...), and I sleep well most of the time. Real life things get in the way and break through, but most of the time I'm fine.
It took two weeks to get consistent sleep benefits, but it hasn't pooped out in three years.
Hey, I see a problem that maybe we can fix:
> cleaned....read a little bit....paced
> enough sleeping pills to drop a horse and I'm not sleepy...but I'm soooooooooo tiredWhy aren't you in bed once you take the sleeping pills? You can easily win over the pills, especially if they're hypnotics, by staying up and occupying your mind. Take 'em and lie down, close your eyes, and...
>the current thought spinning through my head:
> for the love of jimminy why did I rent a place without a tub?!! I could at least have insomnia in a hot bath. Awake and immersed in hot water sounds beyond delightful....imagine that tub. Imagery can work wonders! (I'm a skeptic about everything, but I can lie on my tummy and imagine someone giving me a massage. Often that's enough relaxation to drop off.) So get in bed and think of something nice.
Also, you can sit at the bottom of your shower and let the hot water fall on your head and back. I've done that when I was tubless, and it's a pretty good facsimile.
> Have you ever sobbed so hard your entire body shook? And continued on in this fashion with the body shaking, the tears NONSTOP, hardly able to breathe due to all the damn tears for half an hour and more.........and not been able to attach this seeming sadness to anything?
Yes. Although that's the sadness that I was attaching it to--being overwhelmingly sad.
> If I were a stock I'd dump my ass so fast and find something long term and steady.
Yes. If you were a stock, I'd probably cash you in. But I wouldn't do that to a person I loved. We don't love people because they will earn us a high yield on our investment. We love them because we can't help it--because they make us love them.
> ever see the betting area of a race track after the races are over? all those scraps on the floor trodden uponI live near the Preakness, so, yes.
> that's what happens when one gives up and crumples up their life tired of gambling for a longshotActually, no. It's what happens when a whole lot of people bet about twenty bucks on a horse that didn't win, and they're too lazy to find a trash can!
You are not a longshot. You're a surefire winner.
> please let me win too
Right. I just said that. You will win because you are strong. Even with all your crying, we know you are strong, or you wouldn't be swiming so hard.
Good luck on Monday. It's only a couple more days. Please remember what everyone has told me: Your body's on overdrive right now. You will not lose your sanity, and you will not die from lack of sleep. Eventually, your body's and mind's natural need for sleep will take over, and you will sleep. You have slept before; you will sleep again. It's just a little phase.
Now why do you get so anxious about your partner's folks? Maybe you need to explore what's so scary about them and what you can do to protect yourself. Then this can maybe get less of a priority in your life.
Take good care of yourself. We care about you.
beardy : )>
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