Posted by Roo on June 3, 2002, at 16:17:41
I've been feeling really bad lately. A friend asked
how my spirits were. I told her not too good. (This was
through email) she emailed back to write down 5 things
I would do in an ideal world and said it would make me feel
better. My gut instinct was just to say "You know...fuck
off". It would be nice if that's all it would take to make
me feel better. It just irritated the hell out of me, even
though she was trying to be helpful and meant well. Does she
think I'm just feeling sorry for myself and thinking negatively
and all I need to do is make this little list and everything will
be fine? Life just doesn't even seem worth living
and making a list like that just seems like a mockery of
my existence...everything I feel I CAN'T achieve right there
on a nice little list. Ugh. I know I sound awful, but sometimes
it's so frustrating when the people closest to you
cannot fathom this disease. Her email just made me
burst into tears.
poster:Roo
thread:25002
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