Posted by Cass on November 23, 2001, at 23:57:55
I'm very close to committing suicide. I've refilled a couple of medicines which are very potent. I made a will. I've made plans for a new home for my dog.
I know I have people around me who love me. They have seen that I'm depressed, and they have been supportive. I have wonderful people in my life, although they do not know that I am suicidal. I have medical problems that won't go away. I don't think my relationship with my boyfriend is going to work out, and I'm afraid of being old and alone. I don't have the emotional reserves to deal with some of the issues in my life. My financial and emotional life is precarious. I don't believe in hell, but there are certain things I will miss about life; my garden, my dog, my friends. I don't believe it's a sin, but I am very sad to do it nonetheless. Sorry to lay this on you. It's a secret to everyone around me, and I want to talk about it. I called my pdoc today, but he did not call back. I'm not sure how much I would have told him anyways for fear he would put me in a hospital.
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