Posted by Kristi on October 11, 2001, at 12:40:39
In reply to Re: vacillation and weirdness » sar, posted by shelliR on October 10, 2001, at 21:35:36
Shelli,
How exactly to you disagree with me???? It sounds the opposite. The post above was to help her thru the night, not her life.
> Sar, along the lines of offering advice when not asked...
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> You are alive and wonderful. I'm gonna put myself on the line and disagree with Kristi (but not because I don't think she is wise).
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> I don't think that meds are going to be the *whole* answer for you. I think you need someone to help you channel your creative energy between living on the edge and going to the mall. This hurt inside of you that threatens your existance, perhaps by suicide, more likely by alcoholism needs to come to the surface. It needs to be understood, grieved, and put into perspective. So you can move on.
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> Moving on doesn't mean you will become "normal". Moving on means you will have some more choices about your feelings and about your life. I don't think that you're going to lose any of your specialness. Both your pain and the little girl who got dressed the night before for her safety post might learn to live together, and the synergy between the two, will only make you more creative, in my opinion.
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> Today you got hit with a large fine. I know that's hard (really). But what if you had killed some little kid? That would have been so much harder because I don't know if you could have forgiven yourself. That's the good part about being "normal." or more accurately figuring out "being-you-in-the-world". Discovering who you are and how to use that power. Anne Sexton was not normal, but my guess is that in the moment in which she killed herself, she was not feeling very romantic about that fact. She gave up her talent, her kids, her partner, her life. So I guess that's why I think (and everyone else on this board) is pushing for you to get more help (better meds, stop drinking, whatever).
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> Maybe when your insurance reopens you can sign on and start therapy again. But this time, maybe sober.
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> (end of lecture.)
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> Shelli
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