Posted by sar on October 10, 2001, at 1:00:27
In reply to Re: Binge drinking, tranqs and realisations » Krazy Kat, posted by dreamer on October 8, 2001, at 14:51:54
> > Walking unsteadily - I keep having dreams that I can't walk, that I fall down as if in a drunken stupor. On very shaky ground right now, I know. And yet, it must be better for all of us, if we can sit down and share even a bit...
dreamer babe,what inspired you to drink? i thought you had couple years' sobriety under yr belt...
> Keep sharing K we all in pain so sad but not feeling so alone I used to sleep for escapism the current world troubles is affecting me really bad i'm sensitive to the ambience and fear don't know whats going on -ignorant, it'll feed my present paranoia.yes yes yes sleeep but do you ever feel it produces more paranoia, getting so much more out-of-touch with the outside world etc? what's troubling you? ambience and fear will most certainly feed paranoia...oh bay but yr not ignorant, you seem v. attentive to yr moods...
> Ever feel although labelled with mental illness yet feel so sane.. > awake.
> The world caving in on itself.
i think i would hate myself were i "sane." actually, i'd probably have a decent healthy respect for myself rather than hate myself as i now do, but in this short short time crazyness has endeared iteslef to me...i like being weird...the swings interrupt my life to an outrageous degree but i can't imagine any toher way...are you financially stable? what do you do for a living? have you got any social support?> Well as for drinking it's not worth it i don't want to see my reflection in a shop window dirty homeless lost bitter and twisted.
jeez jeez gilber grape me either, that scares me so much, my dad predicts that i'll be a "derelict under the Commerce Street Bridge" in spite of my current semi-oppulence, but the alk has a stronghold on me, why why why dreamer, what what what caused you to drink again????
> Treat people like children or stupid .Guess we take advantage of that licience to express or sit and stare.
> Think ill be the first to fail the therapy the nurse has a xcellent success rate (being part of a community a belonging when i crave for the opposite).
ah, those "excellent successs rates" can be so tricky , so weird, so unrewarding...be WEIRD be DREAMER be fonny DR. EAMER, oh lovely, be here with us...
> > And it would be a burden not to have you here...
yes
love,
sar
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