Posted by Todd on February 24, 2001, at 23:22:13
In reply to Re: Part of Me Doesn't Want to Get Well, posted by ShelliR on February 23, 2001, at 19:09:50
The body therapy thing is a great thing to be doing. I have had similar energetic work done on myself that didn't involve any actual hands-on, but it all works under the same idea. We all, from a very young age, tend to block the pain of anything we experience as traumatic and teach ourselves to block all pain similarly, until it becomes automatic and the method becomes buried in the subconscious mind. Like you describe, a lot of these memories seem to be actually stored in our physical bodies until we summon the will and courage to feel it and let it go. Body therapy helps you to get in touch with that pain. Of course, to let it all go, you have to feel it all over again. That's the tough part. Feeling pain hurts with a capital "H." But once you feel it, understand what was behind it, and let it go, it can really start to transform your life.
You spoke of crying and not knowing why you were crying. I have had similar experiences, just bursting out into tears with no advance warning and no immediate reason. I am told that these are releases of negative energy that have been stored in your psyche since before you could speak. Basically, you are re-experiencing pain from the perspective of yourself as an infant with little or no understanding of the physical world.
When you start doing any kind of work like this, it's easy to become convinced that there is a bottomless wellspring of pain within you that will continue to make your life miserable. This really isn't true. The reason you need to feel this pain is so you can understand it and let it go. Grit your teeth and open yourself up to as much as you feel you can handle. Most of the time, it's not even a conscious thing. Once you start this kind of work in earnest, you set wheels in motion that keep you on course. You'll eventually find that what you thought was a wellspring of pain is your own beautiful light that was meant to shine. Peace and love.
Todd
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